Book VI - page 36

Everything is a mess... I am so torn and broken inside... A betrayed and a seductress...

But i never meant to hurt him, never meant to hurt anyone... I don't know what is wrong with me, don't even recognize the one staring back at me from the mirror.

I am drowning in my sea of loathing, feeling what's left of my elven side slowly changing in me.
There is no turning back now as i feel the demon inside me have awoken.
I can sense inside myself, the darkness is rising and it seems that all that was good inside has died
and is decaying in me.

Who am i trying to fool... Another dream that will never come true...


I have taken your life from you, a gift i add to my own pain and suffering.
Another truth you can never believe has crippled you completely and all the cries
you're beginning to hear trapped in your mind, and the sound is deafening.

Another nightmare is about to come true... Another love that I've taken from you
Letting you taste the evil i breed, leveling you complete and bringing to life everything that you fear as I live in the dark like a woman in suffering never truly telling you why. I just come around to let you saver each moment but leaving you broken like a bloodstained hurricane.

When the heart is cold and broken, there's no hope for me running into the neather away from all my power has done to you. I only hope you will heal inside... Trapped in this holocaust watching me laugh. My face haunting your waking moments.

It seems my very soul has to bleed this time leaving another hole in the wall of my inner defenses.

But my love is split in two, like my soul... bleeding inside only feeling relive with each of you.
This i know cant go on but where will i end? Do they even see what hides behind the soft smile and shining eyes. Do they even sense the change inside.

I need to let go but i fear that that will mean loosing the last strand of humanity inside me... The darkness filling me completely and driving out all else...

I only hope the ritual can give me control... But i fear i will be lost in darkness...