Book VII - Page 44

Today Eli and I spoke a lot about my past and how we both view the ones that has been in my life before him.

We also talked about marriage... I cant help becoming weak at the knees.. Someone that wants to have me me as theirs on that level and also wants to become mine fully.
It was mostly because we discussed Vidal and Kaaellus have married and apparently she is pregnant.

We talked about Lilith in regards to Eli needing to talk with her which lead us to talk about children..

Its been a lot of heavy subjects this night to be honest some scare me but with him they for the first time actually seem possible.

Then he falls back into my past and issues regarding whether or not he can trust me. He fears that when the ring is broken that i will leave him.. And i would never?
I dont understand why he cannot trust in my words.. in me.
He is everything.. But yes i have fears and doubts just as he does.. I am trying to show him that together we can take on the world as long as we have each other.

I told him to use the ring so he could know the truth about everything he wants to know and he is insecure about but he dosent want to use that against me.

I finally made him use it.. He wanted to know how i felt about everyone of my former lovers and i did one by one.