Book V - page 3

This day all collapsed... My control... my feelings... my memories
Everything just came crashing down on me.

Adrias had gone to Sivri so i had to follow and i got Ziz to back me up but it was to earlier for me to try and fight.
She found my weakness, the hole in my memories that i was protecting.
I lost myself the rage took over... She took over…
But now i remember... I rememeber HIM, i remember our time together.

I got Adrias out safe but Ziz i fear that most of all wantet to abandon me for my falier.
I called for her when i regained control again and was back in my house...
She scowlded me for letting my feelings take over like that and she is right i MUST regain control over myself.
Ziz came up with a plan so now we went to find Lady Death and we found her... or should i say she found us.
It was a close call and our lives were on the edge of i knife for a while but Ziz peaked her interest and tomorrow we start our training...
I must grow stronger, strong enough to find him...

After our little ordeal with Lady Death Ziz and I meet up with Cyrion and Adrias. Adrias has been corruptet by shadow as Ziz once was and now we need to have him purged as she.
We have decided to keep Adrias safe at the boats after this has happened for as long as he is weak i will protect him with my life.
He is very dear to me i feel that and were it not for Yebern, Adrias would be a man i would be proud to call mine. He is sweet and kind to me, want to protect me from harm, he is all the things that Yebern thinks he has lost and can not give me... A part of me loves Adrias for all his actions towards me but Yebern holds my heart... my soul...

I no longer feel him. Our connection is gone. What has happened to him. Where is he...?
I will search the universe if i have to. Tear a whole in the world...
I must find out, find him...

My love... my life...