Book VII - Page 34

I am feeling i am on the verge of death... It took so much from me to get her back.. Without the aid of Eli and the power from the dragons essence it would not have worked.
But i got her back for him... And he did take me to rest in his arms until he needed to go back to her...
Everything will be so confusing and Eli wants to take her to outlands to finish her training, giving me time to recuperate for a couple of days.
I just hope i did it all like Shanra taught me and that her body will hold.. I need to hold a close eye on her and teach her about all of this...

Book VII - Page 33

Ziz called me, she wanted my opinion in regards to a potential new sister as she was a shadow priestess.
She had apparently had visions of us but she was very vague about it.
I tried to focus on the new girl Sihari but Ziz kept talking to me through the link wanting to know everything that had happened before she came to the ship.
Then Elindras reaches out to me. It was hard to keep from betraying my excitement from both Ziz and the other girl. I like how he tries to play with on feelings to get what he wants because he is worried for me.
Ziz was slightly worried if the girl had been sent by Shanra but i do not think so.. My mentor and her lover is long gone once again.
But she wore a bracelet of Shreezee so might not be that fare off. I wonder if she still has contact to him?
Elindras came over to us after Sihari left i am still not sure if that was a good or bad thing. 
A druid then comes to join us apparently a friend of Elindras.
Well then Kealther came as well after the druid Connor left. Ziz was quickly over him.
And then Handrall came... weird run of people this night... But Han was there to deliver the ring... He did not like that Elindras was to have the ring but he trusts my judgment.

Book VII - Page 32

We fought over that whole lost child thing. How can he think to keep her and at the same time saying he is dangerous? She calms him? Well thank you what the feck is my place then She is a kid... And he didnt even try to see it from my point of view. Then he broke the oath fully. The grief gave her a chance to take over so i changed mid flight and that fall nearly broke my body but it kept her from being free to roam.. Ohi tried to protect me against Cy not knowing he was a friend. Ohi entering my mind was a very bad idea but Cy at least got him out.
Zizey called for so many to try and get me back in check Aredorn, Ohis sister, Handrall but also a demon hunter i didnt know... Thyc
The ritual to try and force her back to sleep took way to much and i still feel the burn on my forhead from that sigil.
Aredorn bit Zizey to protect me, i used him against her but it backfired and he was almost consumed by her lust.. Begging me after they got her to sleep to get Zizey out of his mind.
I stayed with him during that night just soothing him as he has done for me so many many times.
Poor Han was captured on the ship the whole night as well making him loose his own weeding day. If i had known I would have taken him back myself.
Han is to insecure in his own skills.. I want him to become a part of us but he dosent think he can contribute to anything yet he has been keeping my ring safe for a long time.
Then all of a sudden with Han and Are already there, Cy and then Ami shows up to make sure i am alright.

I am not fully sure what just happened as i ended up with Cy, Are and Ami all there around me.. It almost turned into a contest of who held my attention most... I mean i cant complaint it did start some thoughts but still..

Was a good thing I left for Stormwind.. I needed to see Eli...

He came as soon as i called for him... I like how he seems so happy when i am around him as if i take some of his pain away.
He looked a bit like an old satyr with that new beard.. something about the time in the nether flowing differently.
He always makes me feel like i am the only person in the world when i am with him.
I told him what happened and he seemed calm in most of it.. Hurt that I didnt call but he understood that i was not able to.
He really dosent trust Ziz.. I hope with time I can change that.

But he took me to the ship and swore the oath to be and I gave him the ring to protect.
I cant believe that he got her to agree to the contract but he deed... There is just something about him.. This could either be what i have always hoped for or what will crush me fully.

Book VII - Page 31

Why in all the nether does she need to put people on my tail to protect me? So easy to get everyone else to do it.. I could have ripped Ohirius apart at that moment.. My mind was completely somewhere else.

Runing into Eli and Kaelther and Eli wanting me to refresh why i left in such a hurry the day before... well i still don't know if i am safe around him if he finds out, so i need to be careful but he is making it very difficult as i only feel my desire for him grow.

I couldn't hold back we seem so alike in so many ways and he knows exactly what to say and which buttons to push.. It is not like he is using it against me cause he has this soft and gentle side that i did not expect.. the hatred for what he has become and what he looks like because of it yet knowing the power and strength it gives him.

I wanted to take Ziz to meet him and i wanted to have her make the rune again so i thought i would make her do it someplace i knew Eli would find us.. i just didn't know Zizey would affect me so...
It turned into a horrible mess and non of them trusts each other in any way. Well i need to work on that.
Finding him in Shadowmoon in his demon form well at least we finally got everything out in the open and it seems that we are even more alike than i first thought...

Book VII - Page 30

Well Rem has been gone for a while now.. so i seem to be draw to this other demon hunter.. i mean in the way of going further with the teachings Rem started...

I saw them in Duskwood out patroling on their felsabers.

Their leader clearly knew i was following them but then again this time i had no reason to hide. Seeing our previous two encounters had been so.. fruitful.

His second in command could be useful as well as he seems a bit... simpleminded.

I approached them at the haunt but i had Blade following me.. I told him to go off and finally he seemed to understand.

Well I got to speak with Elindras at the end.. Seems he was worried about me regarding Blade, fearing that he might have some control over me.. Well he would wish he had but no he is only pushing me farther away every time we speak.

And meeting the group in Stormwind we went to go talk. I do think I am getting closer to Eli but i feel i should be very weary of this person cause i feel him stirring something in me as well.

And the kiss... I needed to get away..i couldn't pull it together.. What is it he is doing to me???

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The night was amazing.. I know he has been holding back a lot and we have not been very intimate.. but this... I had not thought a hunter could be so gentle and caring...

I needed to know that we were still in this together.. Needed to feel that his words were more..
I was happy to know that i had made him rest for the first time in a long long time. My presence soothing the horrors of his mind enough for a peaceful rest to find him.

Finally he let the demons of his past.. the worries of what this could mean behind.. But i feel that as long as he is open with me it cannot fail..

We can overcome this together, his teachings in the ways of the hunter makes me stronger, strong enough to stand at his side in his inner struggle as well.
He has the ring to protect. I can not give more now...

I know it was hard fro him to let go and see past his focus on war and revenge.. To see me as well..
To say i bring out the elf in him he had almost forgotten, the man he was.. before..

I am still unsure about him wanting to speak with her again, Erinyea is so unpredictable and there is always a chance i can not regain control... But i will do what he asks.. My life is in his hands and i trust him with it.
I fear how the elven runestones magic will affect it all.

But i really dont have his patience, walk from Stranglethorn to Eversong? Good thing i was able to persuade him.. I would have gone mad.
And he dared call me lazy.. i was the one doing the flying!

He can seem a bit to cocky when i try to warn him of her... i just hope nothing will go wrong.

Well we stayed at Zizey camp for the night before moving towards Eversong...

Book VII - Page 28

Finally a little peace... To find Rem safe... I am both scared and excited about tomorrow... About that answer...
I do understand his reason for leaving though he needs to know I dont need him to protect me.
He fears to much for me.

I think I finally made him see that the past will always haunt us but we cannot let is cripple us. What makes us strong is our ability to feel... He sees past the demon.. he understands.. a little and its okay. I know it is different with his demon... They are two and we are one but he still understands and accepts it because he took upon him his demon because he knows the strength that can be derived from it...

I still hold the same fear as he does... If we fall our cost is so much greater...

It is good to be back here in the jungle... My waterfall haven... Though the last time ended in a mess I hope that this will give me a new start out here...

Regarding the ring I am still unsure how to undo it but i fear that a sacrifice will demand a sacrifice and at what cost? I long to be whole again and yet i fear it so... Who will i become.. The druid and take my place among my kin? Will I return to be a siren at my sisters side? Or will I seek the shadows once again?
I dont know anymore... But I am confident that I will prevail somehow...