Book VI - page 25

I could not resist anymore... nor did i truely want to...
He stayed with me all night?

Silly girl are you loosing what little heart you have left to one who will never be yours? weak to give in are you not... you know you will end up hurt.. throwning away what could have brought you peace... do you even want to be happy or do you enjoy the chaos and pain?

The training brought out Erinyea... how stupid of me to forget, to let my guard down with her... but she has been quiet for so long i had almost thought her gone...
Was it because of the straine on me from keeping my ward up to protect me from the flames? or was it the presence of both Shanra and The Reaver?

Ohh how he intriges me, he always have... I feel a strange surge around him, yet he seems to not remember me, is that a ruse? It must be as i should not be naive and think other wise with him.
Ziz and Yeb told me so much...

Shanra seemed to be protective of me as i had a hard time holding my tounge and restraining my teasing nature around The Reaver.

You stupid fool the Reaver will kill you... From the ashes and into the fire once more... to wake a reavers attention and interest is almost certain death... and this it THE Reaver.
Still you flirt around... let him see to much... ohh but the power... the power of both... i want more!

The night in his embrace i could not have imagined unlike Yebern there is also care in his touch... Unlike Diigar he feels what i want.. crave.. need... He is my master and he is not afraid to show me.

I know we will never be more then this... I know what he is and that he can never be owned...

I look to the training later today with fight... it has been a long time since i have let Erinyea free myself.
To let her talk with Shanra... I am not sure that this is a good idear but for now i will play along and trust him..

I do not wear the ring anymore... it was never meant to be and i was just fooling myself trying to live a lie...
I pray to Elune for forgivness though a part of me does not even care, like with Diigar...

I tried to tell them all that i cannot love... not really anymore... that was why i removed that part of my soul... to never be hurt like that again...

Shanra stirrs so time to still the hunger deep inside once more...