Book VII - Page 55

Found Shan're in the Graveyard this evening, I was so happy to see him after so long at the same time hurt he believed what had happened was true. He should- I thought he new me better being as close to me as he was. I admitted he was like a brother, but his cold tone proved more time would be needed.

He needed something however, his body was dying, of course it was he needed my blood, my powers. Of course I was going to give such, I was not going to let him die. He needed me on the one day I had something arranged, I need to find a way to get to him. He does not have the time to spare anymore.

We spoke of the children, we were worried that someone would try harm them to get to Eli. Trying to keep it hidden is becoming -very- difficult along side other signs showing that betray me. Bah, he tried to tell me not to come to the ritual thinking me fragile because of it and that Eli owned me. He should know better. Though I understand his worry, Eli would likely try hurt him if I did gain any wounds.

We spoke of Rey, how her condition hasn't been the same since that day she healed him and vanished. She needs to stabilize, I am struggling to find a way with everything that is happening.

We spoke a bit more regarding Lilith and the book with Lady Deaths teachings within it could aid him in controlling the void without going completely insane. The conversation turned once more Argus was brang up, worries on how the Watchers might take actions against the Hunters once more. Though I feel it will not happen. Not unless they desire war.

We left one another again on a higher note than how it began. I am grateful we got to speak, I have missed him terribly. I just hope I can fix what I broke.

Book VII - Page 54

Arathriel came to the roofs of the City tonight seeking me out. He desired the leystone charm Shan was creating. The two are still together it would seem regardless of the happenings as of late. I diverted for a small while, it still stung with the distance between the two of us. Alas I stated I would give it to Rey, and she could give it to who ever she pleases, I can't say I cared much for such.

I met a curious bird today, all on its own on a rock. Took me a moment to realize it was a druid then he turned into a charming human by the name of Alexander. We spoke for quiet some time about Ashenvale and my travels from there to here and why going back was not desired.

Thinking of them forests both warms my heart and cools the flesh. I do miss it sometimes. Regardless we headed to Gilneas, I always forget how much water there is..  none the less it was a breathtaking sight to behold.

We had some fun, jumping of cliffs and shifting, he even threw me into the water! That's when it got more fun, an unspoken challenge to see who could hold there breath longest, naturally I was going to win but it was amusing to watch him try.

He clearly wanted more than the playful banter and wrestling but he new I was taken, so I helped set him up with one of my draenei friends. He was eager bless him.

I went home after that in a far better mood then what the morning had brang.

Book VII - Page 53

The Court went on a mission tonight, I was unable to attend though now I wish I had for if I had maybe Rey would not have fallen to her fate and Shan're may not have met such grim wounding and Eli would not be cold and distant. I should of gone..

She must of used far to much shadow for her body to handle, I warned her of this at least I know where she will end up but getting there is going to be difficult. I will bring her back, I must for Eli and myself, I have grown ever so fond of her. I will not leave her to this fate.

I will find her. I must.

Book VII - Page 52

I met Lwyillia in the city tonight, she asked me to teach her in the ways of shadow healing. First lesson, shadow does not heal it harms, it burns it hurts..  but it can 'mend' it seems many get this fact mixed up more often than not.

We agreed to start on Tuesday, though I have some doubts on this matter. Was her mind strong enough to handle the power, the influence of the dark, we will find out in time but I will keep an eye on her.

After that we went for a drink at the Slaughtered Lamb, not my favorit place, it has always attracted the worst types, but that its charm, so many interesting souls walking in and out. I grew tierd however, so I set out again for the ship, briefly stopping at the camp for some idle chatter with a few of the court.

All in all a calm day, now I shall spend the rest of it with my love.

Book VII - Page 51

Eli seemed in a lovely mood tonight, such was a nice change. Nothing had boiled his blood or caused him to become frustrated, it warms my heart to see him this way, the softness, the charm.

We started to speak of the order, with Kaaellus stepping down we needed a replacement and he thought myself and Shan're might both be good choices and any other who wished to aid.

Still in need of fixing the runes, Shan're's tampering did a number on the system. I need to get his word he will not do such again before offering him a new one and setting up the system a second time.

Ferow came to camp with a verdict on the alliance talks. Regretfully it was not the answer I wished to hear, declining and then heading back to Ashenvale. I offered my aid if ever he needed it as always.

After such I managed to catch Shan for our little talk regarding the runes. He promised not to tamper again, and I wanted to teach him how to make the runes and how to shut them down if needed. Though to do such he needed to be more connected.

A test of trust and will, as I needed his blood in my veins. For this he had to stab himself in the heart, and then myself - never have been good with stabbing myself. I feel this act brang us a little closer, though I had forgotten the feeling of bliss his blood and the seething pain granted.

I had to take a moment to gather my thoughts to keep her contained also, I can feel her smirking. I had to keep my distance from him for a couple hours at least, but it was done now. But this feeling was not passing, I needed Eli and there he was.

I pounced upon him, wishing nothing more than to feel him against me he did allow it my mind cleared but the desire never faded. He was pulled away again I will have to get him on the ship, I can't keep this pent up.

Book VII - Page 50

Met with Ferow after not seeing him for what seemed like an age. Last I saw him was Ashenvale, and the cheek of it he hadn't even written to me in all that time! Though I can understand why, trapped in combat with a faceless one and a failing group of comrades..  I understand that struggle all to well.

We spoke in length about his feelings towards Shan're he seemed to think he was not permitted such, that his emotions and thoughts were not important, nor relevant in any form. I tried my best to convince him otherwise but my words held little sway in this situation. It saddens me to see him so lost.

I did manage to guide him into the idea of an Alliance with the Accord. He brang one of his own to the camp and the talk began. It was tense in parts but such was looked past as was the past. Sadly however the offer given to us was fairly one sided in the eyes of Eli, they would not fight with us on Argus only upon Azaroth. Things left unclear, Kas and Shan both think he is hiding something and I am starting to see such also.

Ferow has changed so much, to much. Ruined the image I had of him once before, a shame truly he was such an interesting soul until he became a timid, tamed beast.

Book VII - Page 49

Duskwood seemed ever so empty tonight, peaceful for a change. Eli, Kas and Shan did a patrol with me before heading back to the camp. I was in a devilish mood and teased Kas with my fanged grins.
We went for a lovely princess tea party, everyone had to dress up we women in trouser outfits and in dresses the men! Oh they looked so dashing and far to comfortable! I had to hold in my laughter more than once.

We settled on a small island on the border of Stranglethorn where a camp fire, pillows and food had been set up, tea was boiling and the chatter began.

Arathriel seemed to be acting odd, wandering off else where for a while. Upon asking if he is doing alright, he stated his condition was getting worse. I told him to fight or indulge either one I would support him.

Sadly the rain came putting a pause on the tea party for a short time, but instead of sulking like many of them where I dragged the boys into the water with some effort. Their such a bore at times! It was relaxing still but no fun, even as I tried to start a water fight all they did was whine about there hair..  of all things.

We headed back to camp afterward, it was a shame it couldn't last longer. Arathriel finally admitted that Shan and him were friends, that brang a smile to my lips knowing they had bonded in some way.
We spoke of Farrow, Shan thought it best he leave him on account of placing him in danger both physically and mentally. I offered him teachings, how to sway the mind of others with words and scent alone. He seemed interested.

We arrived again in Duskwood, where an Ebon was making empty threats towards a few of the court, though they did dare to attack how I wished to rip them apart arrogant fools! All over a demon and talk of necromancy.

After the guard had come forth and the demon had fled we headed back to the City, back to camp. The runes had been shut down and tampered with by whom unknown but it is ever so annoying having to fix them -again-

Shan then called for aid, he was in dire need of aid it seems, we found him in a barn blooded and badly wounded. We dragged him back to camp, I healed him swiftly though that shoulder would likely not work properly again for a while. What the hell did he get himself into this time!?

Book VII - Page 48

Late again! Thankfully they had not left yet. Shan're had located the Grimoire in record time, never disappoints in divination amazes me still how swiftly he can find objects. Sadly this one seemed to be in the grips of a void being by the name of Kraltin who had hidden away in the lush and beautiful lands of Pandaria.

It seemed critical Shan're not be taken captive, though the reason not told how he though I would let anyone take him was beyond me. Frustratingly enough I could not join them at first, someone was missing and I had wait for them to arrive. Lwyllia a new members of the Court. We set of meeting with the others in a dusty trap riddled place.

Kraltins challenges seemed easy at first, suppress the magics in the room or be lost to his traps. I could suppress such with ease, yet keeping my own looming darkness from taking control was the more dire situation near the end.

He spoke once more, less taunting more a riddle and far more concerning than the last 'challenge' set. "Be what you are ment to be and you may cross unharmed." What was I? Demon, elf, beast. Thankfully Shan're protected me with his magics so I could pass without need of playing this creatures mind games.

The next room held a cold chill, unnatural magical that only grew harsher. It was odd feeling the cold again only she could bring on such discomfort. Ha, Kraltin tried to take us all as fools, offering desires to all those present, the price. Shan're. He did not predict our loyalty, and lost the game.

Book VII - Page 47

Arathriel got himself dragged into some other hunters mess, humans two of them rather crass had asked for some form of aid only to dismiss it by running off and hiding behind a wall. An odd start to my day for sure.

He started to question however, so we took a walk unable to show him aspects of what I do, my magics after all where not seen kindly upon. The forest seemed the best place, so he flew us there. Where I changed clothing, his reaction was like all the others, stumbling stutters and stiff responses. Its not even amusing anymore how easily they fall pray to the smallest sight of flesh.

Our talk was sadly cut short, he was summoned away to a distressed kinsmen and I myself to the camp, mildly frustrating considering my curiosity had been perked but not sated. My reason for going to camp became all to clear, Deal had been waiting to advance his research and I had been postponing on account of Shan're being away.

I could not keep him waiting any longer that seemed unfair though I could not go alone, Eli would blow a fuse. Good thing Til was near by, on his word he swore he would not inform of the details of the project to Eli. Soon he would break that, and some trust I held for him would fade, but such I would not let on, not yet.

Moonbrook again, that glass box was getting ever more uncomfortable etch time I lay in it. We three spoke of the ring, for a short time, I still felt wary of letting go of the safety net, yet what this might do to my unborn s was unknown and such pushed things forward far faster than what I was ready for.

Erinyea was let out, I only heard and saw so much, but a sudden pleased shudder showing someone had fed her some unfortunate soul. Once back at camp, Eli was clearly mistrusting of the situation though he knew of it, in some form. He stormed off in a rage.

My frustration over this crumbled upon seeing Jil! My long lost dearest sister, I couldn't believe it until she was in my arms. I was so exstatic! We spoke for a short time before a Kaldorei girl was dropped off at camp, the one with an odd shadowy taint against her soul. At first the ship may have been the best place, yet home would be better, Eli did not approve to the ship as normal.

Deal came back to camp, along side Eli who had clear intent on ending his life, yet could not as he was a mere mirror image. He demanded an artifact back Eli had stolen, even with this being Thil's fault the blame was on me idle threats of loss of life, life I cared not for but the hassle would be an inconvenience. Trying to convince Eli to return it should take little.

After all this I finally went to find Eli, brooding under a tree. Makes me wish we were back on Argus life though hard was simple, easy and passionate. Just us, he missed such. His rage grew as we spoke of Deal and the deal made between us. He wanted to change it, he had the means to - the artifact.

Book VII - Page 46

They left him.. on Argus!!!
I couldnt find myself in my rage, no reasonable thought I could only think of getting him back.
Thila and Keal was too calm, so sure he was okay but no one knew anything.

Thila told Keal to stay back because the demon forces were to great because he wanted to go ahead with me, but that made him stop.
They kept debating so i left.. I needed to know he was out there..

Keal trusted me and just made me promise to come back alive.
But there were so many..

The others came the next day.. I spend the night hiding in the pile of dead bodies meeting them when they returned to Argus.

We fought in the legions ship until we managed to find Kaaellus and him.. We got them free but were ambushed and needed to retreat fast... we got Kaaellus back..
Eli and I got separated from he rest not getting to the portal as the ship blew up...

Book VII - Page 45

Lokie came to the camp to talk with me, Eli was suspicious about her. She had talked to Ziz and was worried to know we have not been talking for a long time.

I took Eli to Nagrand to my little floating island with the apple tree. The spot i used to run away to.
He liked it. We talked about what our futures might hold and he shared some of his dreams as well.
I was surprised and happy that his dreams were so.. simple.. much like my own..
We have both never really believed it possible.. Do i dare to believe fully now? I know i want to believe...

The Trial was at our base today.. The alliance with them seems to go well.. Also we have a new member Arathriel.. He seems very flirty but then again he did not know who i was.

A death knight wanted to join Korth'Alas, he was rather interesting to say the least but then again dead so well there are limits to how lively they are...

Book VII - Page 44

Today Eli and I spoke a lot about my past and how we both view the ones that has been in my life before him.

We also talked about marriage... I cant help becoming weak at the knees.. Someone that wants to have me me as theirs on that level and also wants to become mine fully.
It was mostly because we discussed Vidal and Kaaellus have married and apparently she is pregnant.

We talked about Lilith in regards to Eli needing to talk with her which lead us to talk about children..

Its been a lot of heavy subjects this night to be honest some scare me but with him they for the first time actually seem possible.

Then he falls back into my past and issues regarding whether or not he can trust me. He fears that when the ring is broken that i will leave him.. And i would never?
I dont understand why he cannot trust in my words.. in me.
He is everything.. But yes i have fears and doubts just as he does.. I am trying to show him that together we can take on the world as long as we have each other.

I told him to use the ring so he could know the truth about everything he wants to know and he is insecure about but he dosent want to use that against me.

I finally made him use it.. He wanted to know how i felt about everyone of my former lovers and i did one by one.

Book VII - Page 43

I ran into Renuath in Duskwood. Like always he was flirtatious but he dosent really hold the same appeal anymore. I mean yes it is always nice to be complimented... He was still talking about the places he once promised to show me..
Well it was nothing much just idle chit chat before I moved on.
It was fun however that he said i reminded him of the sun.. I do think it was meant as pretty afare but dangerous the closer you get...

A new hunter joined Toliare. Eli was talking with her, Tenta and Shan. I waited patiently at the camp for them to finish.
Eli told me he had left the court to Kaaellus.. I didnt understand why
He thinks the orb of oaths gives suffering as i am sworn to protect them as well as they are me but he forgets he is also sworn to the orb so i will do the same for him and i would even without the orb.

He was angry i warned Keal... But how could i not.. This was my fault not his..
He is angry for my disloyalty in regards to Keal but he also understands me.. just not hiding anything from him. And i understand him fully i shouldnt...

But we got it sorted and then we are like always fine when we just get it out.. But then Kaaellus and Vidal comes with a new member Anya. I just couldnt do anymore so i left for the ship.

Well then I finally captured Soren for and he was okay with it actually so I have taken him to the house where he will live from now on.

Eli came and we were at the waterfall for once just us well until we wanted to return to the ship. Kaaellus and Vidal and Haffaleas were at the camp and VIdal and Kaaellus wanted a word so he did not come back to me before hours later where I had dosed off.

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It is hard for me to be in the court with him there.. I want to rip his eyes out.
Eli wants me to make things better with him but i just cant see how he almost ripped my heart out.

Some of the new ones seems a bid edgy as they seem to follow their own whims but that is not my place i am not a councilor.

Tenta keeps being smug around Eli but he will feel my wrath when he least expects it.. when he thinks i have forgotten.

/Q

Book VII - Page 41

A couple of new hunters joined Kaaellus and Vidal a couple it seems but Eli ignored me so i left.

Shan're called us to the haunt in regards to some shady individuals but it was nothing really. Tenta was came along as we walked to Darkshire and i joked with Shan after him having a warden in training hugging him.
I found Soren and managed to approached him to meet him at some later point.

The suddenly i find out that Eli is raging cause Tenta lied to Eli and said that Qill and Shan're has been together.
Tenta will get killed by my hand when he least expects it i swear this.. His lies and betrayl almost cost me the trust on the only one that matters to me.. A kindness i will repay upon him ten fold.
But i dont hate him.. no i pity him.. i pity him needed to stop to this.. That is such a coward that wants to see everything around him burn..
I was trying to help him with his state of mind and then this.Tenta did it for position and power but most of all the rage in him just makes him want to destroy everyone that are happy...

He is the most incompetent moron i have ever met.. I tried to explain but the only thing he could say was me having sex with someone else.

It broke him.. He stood with his back to me for so long.. I feared I would never see his face again... And i know that all he said was true and I knew that yes i had told him but never who.. His words like whiplashes. Never have I felt anything ripping at my soul like that... Never
His words burned into my soul forever:

"My heart breaks for us... I love us.. I love you.. and i will free you.. Even though my fears will come true...You will leave me for another!"

I thought my own would stop right there...
Wanting to grip him tightly and tell him how sorry I was for being weak for not being stronger than the curse... Tell him how I can never ever find anyone and if he leaves me.. there is no life for me...

I bound the ring to him.. He was against it but now he has the full control over me so many have sought...

And he left me to go deal with court buisness in the middle of it all.. I tried to stay concious but the ring and the new connection left overwhelmed me and i passed out.. I dont know how long i was laying on the stone before he woke me but my body ached so a while i would think.

That night i wont forget in.. well forever

Book VII - Page 40

They went to see Lilith. Eli did not think it was a good idea i joined them and apparently Ziz was already there.
Eli didnt tell me much but he told me it was fixed and they got the blood without hurting her.

He then had to bring Thila back to life.. I didnt pay much attention to be honest to that.

I went to Duskwood and ran into Bel and Tower in Darkshire... But more interesting was Ferow was in the grove? I wondered why he was there and followed him. Showing myself outside Duskwood. Apparently he is leaving his order but not until she is sure they can manage on their own...He is doing well the feral issues he had back when we met are under control now.
We small talked as we walked to Stormwind... And i reminded him of the offer for our orders to become allies.

The next day i met Renuath in the city.. He is still as flirty as always but we both know it will not be more than that because of our history. He still wants to show me the places we have talked about before but i am unsure.. I dont want to give him the wrong idea. But it was nice to talk with him again. Shan're turned up looking for me while we were talking. Seems they know some priestess both of them.

I ran into Rem later that day, he is back from Outlands where i know he mostly stays. It is good to know he is alright... I miss having him around.
We went to Nagrand and had a talk about why he left also of him maybe joining the court.

Book VII - Page 39

I met with Alleris or Blade today to take him to see Eli in regards to the alliance with the Crimson Covenant.
He wanted to kill himself off because of me in a relationship... Eli of course needed to show that i was his very clearly to Blade. He couldnt handle it. He felt i had betrayed him.. stabbed a knife through his back... It was never my intent but neither were we as a couple.. He just didnt understand who i am or tried to get to know me.
He was a complete lack of emotions... Why i even touched him so deeply i still dont know we only spend time together a couple of times and it always ended with us discussing. Besides he is mated now so why would he take it all like this.. why would he think that he had a change again just because we talked?
Well i left him there wanting to kill himself.. I didnt know what else to do.. I didnt listen nor did he even care what i had to say... Just more of the same... I feel sorry for his mate cause to be the second woman in his heart like this must be horrible.. Though I do have a feeling she dosent know and he is all good and sweet to her...

I talked with Keal at the camp everything seems just a bit quiet at the moment i just feel something is going to happen very soon.. I just dont know what...
I was pleased to hear Keal wants to take it slow with his new lover but I fear he cant hold to that.. But ill let him have the benefit of the doubt for now. 
Shan and Haffeleas came to the camp Haff wants to see if he can get back to life.. Shan might have an idea as to how this could be possible.
Beleth also came around.. He needs help but i just dont know how to help him to be honest. I need to let Eli handle that. Suddenly Keal went suicidal.. His new girlfriend showing up not understanding anything. But well i got him to calm down again and left him with his lover.

I do love the little ping pong i have with Shan... We are similar in so many ways...

Book VII - Page 38

So Keal has his old lover back.. it is strange I am not sure how to go around it.. I mean i am really happy for him and all but well with what has happened and Keal means a lot to me not like Eli but still...
Diel came around he wanted to push forward on the research around me.. I asked to have Shan're presence and he agreed to it just to observe at least. I feel safer knowing i will have him there at least...

I went to talk with Ferow in Astranaar. Not much of the Ferow i remembered left.. So much more like Ami now... I was sad... But i understand why he wants to be more in control and less driven by his instincts... He will talk to the rest of his council about an alliance...

I brought Blade to the base to meet with Eli in regards to the alliance... And yes he felt i had stabbed him in the back getting him to swear to me...

Also met some magus Kediir who is part of the court. An elf of the Kirin Tor i think.. He seems a bit like a stick in the mud but well a good one at least...

Book VII - Page 37

I met with Shan as i wanted to find out more about Elis runes so i could have mine changed if possible.
Shan is very interested in knowing what it is about me and i want to see him without his mask so now we will see if im gonna get what i want.

I met with Blade seeing as i have been trying to form an alliance between the Crimson Coalition and the Court. I have not told him about me and Eli but i got him to swear the oath to the orb. I know he will feel betrayed but i needed him to be a protector.

Afterwards I spoke to Beleth, his powers he knew there was something off about me and he offered himself. He told me about the powers in his blood but i could never have imagined.. Goddess the power flowing through his veins... I need to be careful with this.. I am not sure Eli would understand it was nothing in any way intimate... Keal came but he knows of my addiction so he didnt see it as more...
But i trust Keal... He is loyal to me...

Book VII - Page 36

I gave most the runes of communication at the meeting the other day.

Good thing cause Shan're came to the camp asking for help to track some demon activity down in the city.
Tenta and I were there and went with him to the catacombs of the lamb.
Seems the boy in the catacombs was a charge of Shans. I didnt really get what was going on but i know Shan protected him. He told me the story after we came back to the camp.. at lest it didnt end in fighting...
Shan and i see friendships differently.. He dosent understand why i would be there for all of the others when i get nothing in return.
But it is all i have... My friends and loved ones.. i will always fight to protect.
I learned a lot about him this night and i am glad we seemed to get a little closer. I see a kindred spirit in him. The same struggle as i have.. the same loss...
He knows that i am not what i appear and he was weary at first but he seems to trust in my words as much as he can trust in anyone...
I like him a lot.. and i feel we could be good for each other.. A friendship that could run deep...