Book VII - Page 13

I had been hard during the night to not touch him more but it would not be wise to take this further as it is. He needs to go to Feralas soon before it gets dangerous... Well it already is i guess, with me watching over his sleep.

I told Rem about Handrall and the plan and I told him the risk of getting involved in all this but still he wanted to help. I am both grateful and scared because of this. I dont want him hurt because of me.. And the past only shows that I end up hurting everyone who tries to help me. 

In Redridge Rem said to much but Handral did not seem to notice or care. I had to remind him that unlike the demon hunters, my secret is still a secret. I told them that I was sure Diehl would use me against them and i suggested using the Rata'Han.

When we cane to the grove in Darkwood I knew Diehl was prepared and seeing the infernal... We tried to get to him but of course he used the ring and had me lay at his feet like a lapdog. The fight broke out and Diehl sent me against Rem luckily before anything could happen two worgens interrupted and it leaved the plainfield to talking again. 

I got the feeling Rem wanted to see what he was up against when Diehl sent me to attack him. Should I fight him at some point.. for fun? Or would it be best for me to not show him what i can do?

It went back and forth Diehl not wanting to give up the ring because of research but finally he gave a compromise or so he tried to put it out. I know this was wrong to say yes to but I didnt want to have to fight them... and hurt them, nor did I want Diehl to see the full potential of the rings power.

The only satisfaction in this is knowing how he will have withdrawls from the loss of the rings power. 

The deal was that I would aid him in his research... I fear this because I know the extend of his cruelty and I fear that his research is me so with or without the ring.. He will know more of me. Rem said he would never let me go alone but I fear Diehl will make sure he cannot or at least that he can stand helpless and watch. I actually think that would bring him great satisfaction to torment Rem or whom else that would accompany me.

Then some pompous warden of the grove came. As all the others all high and mighty. That made me think of why i respect Amirol as an elder... because he does not think more or himself and he waits to listen and weigh what he hears without being all "I could kill you right now"... I would have liked to see her try. The warden had not been enough in the grove to know who she was dealing with. Had she been she would have known what things have occurred there all those years ago. 

Amirol I respect because he is humble. Not to be mistaken for weakness no more the other way around... it shows his power and that he does not have to intimidate to get people to listen.

I took Rem to the waterfall behind Begger's haunt on the border to Elwynn. So many times I have sat there with friends and trusted there. 

Now he has the ring... I am still not sure if this was a good idea but I must trust him for now... At least Handrall knows he has it. 

When Rem hid the ring away it was almost like history was looping just me and Zizey had changed places. It was strange that that was how he chose to keep it safe but well it does make me feel safer.

I liked being there with him... Did I go to far by showing him off? I mean he needs to know I have a tendency to play a little.. rough. And I do love to play and fool around.

I liked the closeness between us but we both stopped it before it got anywhere dangerous. 

We went to rest on the island... Maybe we should go to Feralas tomorrow or just him... I dont want to follow him around like a puppy and I need to have a look around Stormwind to make sure Amirol is safe.