We walked to Honor Hold and flew from there to the Wildhammer stronghold. Breathing the felinfused air made me body tremble and I could feel her stir but I have decided to do whatever I can to fight this and not give in. If I am to follow along on this I need to try and not put him in these situations how ever hard it may be.
It was frightening to look at the temple again. Flashes from that night returning and filling my mind. Her on the wall with Randar at her feet ready to do her bidding. The faces of my friends and loved ones wanting only to get me back and feeling her glee from it all.
It is good to make new memories out here how ever timid compared to that they may be. We went inside Rem telling me about his life when he was here. Telling me how one becomes a demon hunter. We found a place to sit and talk. I like to learn about him but the gnawing at the inside of me kept distracting me.
Is he pulling back? I wish he could just tell me but I am not sure he knows himself...
I fear the worst but is that not typical me? Never trusting that anyone will stay.. In the end they all leave and his words still echo in my mind "I dont even know why I am helping you"
He seems so unsure and so closed off but why is that so unnerving to me? I have know others like that, why is this different?
My blood froze as he took out the ring and I was sure that would be the last. What is wrong with me for him to be so uncertain?
Ohh my foolish little thing always so fragile and unsure. Of course he dosent want you, why would he? You are everything he was taught to hate and fight... You are nothing special... The others who pretended to care were only after my power through the ring... He will end up crushing you or better yet... He will make you believe and then turn against you... just like him!
No I need to believe that there is something... Friendship then... But something!
Then why did he leave? Why are you lying here all alone... Maybe you were to hard to be around and he needed to get away... Maybe he regrets ever bringing you...
No he would tell me... wouldn't he? No it is this place... It is getting to me... I need somthing to keep my mind from wandering...
Maybe there are someone to fight.. somewhere...
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