Book VI - page 33

I failed...

I wanted to show him why he needs to be more than just a soldier... To try and ignite that fire that must burn inside us all... Rekindle his passion for the world...

And i fell... yet again... My own embers were the ones that roared into a fire...

Aww my sweet little naive girl... You forget that years for a but a blink for me... I may rest but i am always here with you... The thought of tainting this pure soul is enticing and i will slumber and play along... for now...

I took him to Darnassus... It has been so long since i have been.. home...

Nightshade had grown but she still remembered me and let him ride her... We went to shadowglen, i wanted to show him the peacefulness there. He seemed all surpriced when one of the deercalfs there nibbled at his pants curiously...

I went to Northrend to retrive some of the frostberries for the juice as i knew he did not drink alkohol or well so i guessed.

But then it started again... I could not restrain myself... Her presence overwhelmed me but only one kiss, then i got control... I fled... leaving him behind...
I hid deep in the caverns that night shameful of turning a nice evening into this...

Why can i not just be with people... Why do i ruin everything? I need to train... hard!

But tomorrow i must face my demons... I must find him... I must say i am sorry...

Book VI - page 32

He was there again... Looking out over the waters... I regarded him for some time before he noticed my presence.

We talked a long time this night... It is nice to not be judged by one of his kind for once.

It pains me that he follows his path so relentlessly that he has forgotten his heart, closed it off... He has indeed had a troubled life filled with hardship and pain.

But he needs to be reminded why he became a soldier in the first place... He needs to rediscover his fire... He needs to live again...

I invited him to come with me tomorrow and to let me show him why it is we do fight for the light...

He accepted

Book VI - page 31

Lorich found me... It was nice to see his face again... It has been a long time and it seems a different life when we were close friends. Though with him it is as not a day has passed which is peacful a place i can hide from the grotesque realities of the world.

I ran into that alluring human from Starlight Ibelin and he hat Shari with him, she recognized me instantly.

It could be very good business to work together Sirens and Redmoore Investigations. Something to think more about and maybe have a talk about when the time is right.

Vakil found me, he always does, he made me promise not to tell anything about him.

I left as i felt her take over... I have been to secure... too long...

Ah how easy indeed my little gem... But we are one... I will keep you safe and our goal are the same as long as they do not collide.
I have thirsted for so long... and to have him by my side is pleasurable...
But now to sleep and train...

After what happened i was walking the streets of Stormwind, not able to find rest, when something caught my attention. A lone paladin standing under a tree near the gazebo overlooking the canal. He seemed trying to find peach but Stormwind at night... that is almost impossible...

I approached him, we talked and i took him to the my quiet place.

He seems lost... Without purpose... He follows the light but it seems more of a mundane task, than passion driving him...

I hope we will cross paths again...

Book VI - page 30

I have been searching for Ziz ever since Vakil returned... I need her help to solve this as he has bound me and i can do nothing but obey...

I have been searching everywhere but i finally found her at her camp in Redridge. She was with and elf Jaroven or something.

Why was she telling this one her life story? Can she really trust him? Can we ever trust anyone...

I told her about Amirol and Vakil, she became enraged by it but no news there, she has always been a victim of her own emotions.

I had forgotten how alluring she can be and I reacted to her quickly, feeling the deep hunger of Erinyea submerging.

I needed to get away... fast... or it would have ended badly for the three of us...

But i have missed her so much... i can feel that now...
I can't wait to see her again... i miss the old days, miss being by her side... the two of us side by side against the world...

Book VI - page 29

Ahh to be free again and walk where I please...
It has been good to sleep for this short time but the hunger needs to be quenched now.
He knows me... knows my desires... and for now he is willingly helping me fulfill them. 

The time in the shadow realm has paid of and now she sleeps when i take over... she no longer remember... unless I want her too...

The massacre... the carnage.. the BLOOD...
The night has given me all i need but i am so fare from full... My powers are so easily accessible after she has started trining with the shadows so much... she has become an even greater conduit for me now  after her marking...

I will enjoy this...

Sleep my little angle and feel no remorse... I will make sure you are safe.

Book VI - page 28

So much for my solitude...
Vakil has risen again... to the nethers i feel so powerless before him as i know how much he can hurt Amirol.

I promised he could see her... can i let her free on this plane yet? I doubt it but what can i do... all i want is for him to be safe and again it is my fault he is not.

I have used so long to regain this level of control over her and then he comes, and i can only bend my head and comply. I need to find Zizey or is that to dangerous?

So much i have tried to lay behind me. I was content with my studies here.
I have ignored the Reavers call but i know that i will come to pay for that.

And Shanra? I promised i would be by his side and i disappeared again without a word...

But no one can know why i left... Why i hid to begin with... I promised...him!

Silly little girl who still dreams of his acceptance... his affection. I was the one to catch his attention, I was the one that intrigued him, Your were just the vessel and then his pet.

I have used my time strengthening my senses, my fighting skills and my shadow connection...