Book VII - Page 45

Lokie came to the camp to talk with me, Eli was suspicious about her. She had talked to Ziz and was worried to know we have not been talking for a long time.

I took Eli to Nagrand to my little floating island with the apple tree. The spot i used to run away to.
He liked it. We talked about what our futures might hold and he shared some of his dreams as well.
I was surprised and happy that his dreams were so.. simple.. much like my own..
We have both never really believed it possible.. Do i dare to believe fully now? I know i want to believe...

The Trial was at our base today.. The alliance with them seems to go well.. Also we have a new member Arathriel.. He seems very flirty but then again he did not know who i was.

A death knight wanted to join Korth'Alas, he was rather interesting to say the least but then again dead so well there are limits to how lively they are...

Book VII - Page 44

Today Eli and I spoke a lot about my past and how we both view the ones that has been in my life before him.

We also talked about marriage... I cant help becoming weak at the knees.. Someone that wants to have me me as theirs on that level and also wants to become mine fully.
It was mostly because we discussed Vidal and Kaaellus have married and apparently she is pregnant.

We talked about Lilith in regards to Eli needing to talk with her which lead us to talk about children..

Its been a lot of heavy subjects this night to be honest some scare me but with him they for the first time actually seem possible.

Then he falls back into my past and issues regarding whether or not he can trust me. He fears that when the ring is broken that i will leave him.. And i would never?
I dont understand why he cannot trust in my words.. in me.
He is everything.. But yes i have fears and doubts just as he does.. I am trying to show him that together we can take on the world as long as we have each other.

I told him to use the ring so he could know the truth about everything he wants to know and he is insecure about but he dosent want to use that against me.

I finally made him use it.. He wanted to know how i felt about everyone of my former lovers and i did one by one.

Book VII - Page 43

I ran into Renuath in Duskwood. Like always he was flirtatious but he dosent really hold the same appeal anymore. I mean yes it is always nice to be complimented... He was still talking about the places he once promised to show me..
Well it was nothing much just idle chit chat before I moved on.
It was fun however that he said i reminded him of the sun.. I do think it was meant as pretty afare but dangerous the closer you get...

A new hunter joined Toliare. Eli was talking with her, Tenta and Shan. I waited patiently at the camp for them to finish.
Eli told me he had left the court to Kaaellus.. I didnt understand why
He thinks the orb of oaths gives suffering as i am sworn to protect them as well as they are me but he forgets he is also sworn to the orb so i will do the same for him and i would even without the orb.

He was angry i warned Keal... But how could i not.. This was my fault not his..
He is angry for my disloyalty in regards to Keal but he also understands me.. just not hiding anything from him. And i understand him fully i shouldnt...

But we got it sorted and then we are like always fine when we just get it out.. But then Kaaellus and Vidal comes with a new member Anya. I just couldnt do anymore so i left for the ship.

Well then I finally captured Soren for and he was okay with it actually so I have taken him to the house where he will live from now on.

Eli came and we were at the waterfall for once just us well until we wanted to return to the ship. Kaaellus and Vidal and Haffaleas were at the camp and VIdal and Kaaellus wanted a word so he did not come back to me before hours later where I had dosed off.

Book VII - Page 42

It is hard for me to be in the court with him there.. I want to rip his eyes out.
Eli wants me to make things better with him but i just cant see how he almost ripped my heart out.

Some of the new ones seems a bid edgy as they seem to follow their own whims but that is not my place i am not a councilor.

Tenta keeps being smug around Eli but he will feel my wrath when he least expects it.. when he thinks i have forgotten.

/Q

Book VII - Page 41

A couple of new hunters joined Kaaellus and Vidal a couple it seems but Eli ignored me so i left.

Shan're called us to the haunt in regards to some shady individuals but it was nothing really. Tenta was came along as we walked to Darkshire and i joked with Shan after him having a warden in training hugging him.
I found Soren and managed to approached him to meet him at some later point.

The suddenly i find out that Eli is raging cause Tenta lied to Eli and said that Qill and Shan're has been together.
Tenta will get killed by my hand when he least expects it i swear this.. His lies and betrayl almost cost me the trust on the only one that matters to me.. A kindness i will repay upon him ten fold.
But i dont hate him.. no i pity him.. i pity him needed to stop to this.. That is such a coward that wants to see everything around him burn..
I was trying to help him with his state of mind and then this.Tenta did it for position and power but most of all the rage in him just makes him want to destroy everyone that are happy...

He is the most incompetent moron i have ever met.. I tried to explain but the only thing he could say was me having sex with someone else.

It broke him.. He stood with his back to me for so long.. I feared I would never see his face again... And i know that all he said was true and I knew that yes i had told him but never who.. His words like whiplashes. Never have I felt anything ripping at my soul like that... Never
His words burned into my soul forever:

"My heart breaks for us... I love us.. I love you.. and i will free you.. Even though my fears will come true...You will leave me for another!"

I thought my own would stop right there...
Wanting to grip him tightly and tell him how sorry I was for being weak for not being stronger than the curse... Tell him how I can never ever find anyone and if he leaves me.. there is no life for me...

I bound the ring to him.. He was against it but now he has the full control over me so many have sought...

And he left me to go deal with court buisness in the middle of it all.. I tried to stay concious but the ring and the new connection left overwhelmed me and i passed out.. I dont know how long i was laying on the stone before he woke me but my body ached so a while i would think.

That night i wont forget in.. well forever

Book VII - Page 40

They went to see Lilith. Eli did not think it was a good idea i joined them and apparently Ziz was already there.
Eli didnt tell me much but he told me it was fixed and they got the blood without hurting her.

He then had to bring Thila back to life.. I didnt pay much attention to be honest to that.

I went to Duskwood and ran into Bel and Tower in Darkshire... But more interesting was Ferow was in the grove? I wondered why he was there and followed him. Showing myself outside Duskwood. Apparently he is leaving his order but not until she is sure they can manage on their own...He is doing well the feral issues he had back when we met are under control now.
We small talked as we walked to Stormwind... And i reminded him of the offer for our orders to become allies.

The next day i met Renuath in the city.. He is still as flirty as always but we both know it will not be more than that because of our history. He still wants to show me the places we have talked about before but i am unsure.. I dont want to give him the wrong idea. But it was nice to talk with him again. Shan're turned up looking for me while we were talking. Seems they know some priestess both of them.

I ran into Rem later that day, he is back from Outlands where i know he mostly stays. It is good to know he is alright... I miss having him around.
We went to Nagrand and had a talk about why he left also of him maybe joining the court.