Book VII - Page 39

I met with Alleris or Blade today to take him to see Eli in regards to the alliance with the Crimson Covenant.
He wanted to kill himself off because of me in a relationship... Eli of course needed to show that i was his very clearly to Blade. He couldnt handle it. He felt i had betrayed him.. stabbed a knife through his back... It was never my intent but neither were we as a couple.. He just didnt understand who i am or tried to get to know me.
He was a complete lack of emotions... Why i even touched him so deeply i still dont know we only spend time together a couple of times and it always ended with us discussing. Besides he is mated now so why would he take it all like this.. why would he think that he had a change again just because we talked?
Well i left him there wanting to kill himself.. I didnt know what else to do.. I didnt listen nor did he even care what i had to say... Just more of the same... I feel sorry for his mate cause to be the second woman in his heart like this must be horrible.. Though I do have a feeling she dosent know and he is all good and sweet to her...

I talked with Keal at the camp everything seems just a bit quiet at the moment i just feel something is going to happen very soon.. I just dont know what...
I was pleased to hear Keal wants to take it slow with his new lover but I fear he cant hold to that.. But ill let him have the benefit of the doubt for now. 
Shan and Haffeleas came to the camp Haff wants to see if he can get back to life.. Shan might have an idea as to how this could be possible.
Beleth also came around.. He needs help but i just dont know how to help him to be honest. I need to let Eli handle that. Suddenly Keal went suicidal.. His new girlfriend showing up not understanding anything. But well i got him to calm down again and left him with his lover.

I do love the little ping pong i have with Shan... We are similar in so many ways...

Book VII - Page 38

So Keal has his old lover back.. it is strange I am not sure how to go around it.. I mean i am really happy for him and all but well with what has happened and Keal means a lot to me not like Eli but still...
Diel came around he wanted to push forward on the research around me.. I asked to have Shan're presence and he agreed to it just to observe at least. I feel safer knowing i will have him there at least...

I went to talk with Ferow in Astranaar. Not much of the Ferow i remembered left.. So much more like Ami now... I was sad... But i understand why he wants to be more in control and less driven by his instincts... He will talk to the rest of his council about an alliance...

I brought Blade to the base to meet with Eli in regards to the alliance... And yes he felt i had stabbed him in the back getting him to swear to me...

Also met some magus Kediir who is part of the court. An elf of the Kirin Tor i think.. He seems a bit like a stick in the mud but well a good one at least...

Book VII - Page 37

I met with Shan as i wanted to find out more about Elis runes so i could have mine changed if possible.
Shan is very interested in knowing what it is about me and i want to see him without his mask so now we will see if im gonna get what i want.

I met with Blade seeing as i have been trying to form an alliance between the Crimson Coalition and the Court. I have not told him about me and Eli but i got him to swear the oath to the orb. I know he will feel betrayed but i needed him to be a protector.

Afterwards I spoke to Beleth, his powers he knew there was something off about me and he offered himself. He told me about the powers in his blood but i could never have imagined.. Goddess the power flowing through his veins... I need to be careful with this.. I am not sure Eli would understand it was nothing in any way intimate... Keal came but he knows of my addiction so he didnt see it as more...
But i trust Keal... He is loyal to me...

Book VII - Page 36

I gave most the runes of communication at the meeting the other day.

Good thing cause Shan're came to the camp asking for help to track some demon activity down in the city.
Tenta and I were there and went with him to the catacombs of the lamb.
Seems the boy in the catacombs was a charge of Shans. I didnt really get what was going on but i know Shan protected him. He told me the story after we came back to the camp.. at lest it didnt end in fighting...
Shan and i see friendships differently.. He dosent understand why i would be there for all of the others when i get nothing in return.
But it is all i have... My friends and loved ones.. i will always fight to protect.
I learned a lot about him this night and i am glad we seemed to get a little closer. I see a kindred spirit in him. The same struggle as i have.. the same loss...
He knows that i am not what i appear and he was weary at first but he seems to trust in my words as much as he can trust in anyone...
I like him a lot.. and i feel we could be good for each other.. A friendship that could run deep... 

Book VII - Page 35

Well  seems i needed more rest than i thought and a lot has happened. Reywen has become a strong fighter and she is learning fast as well. A very good student and very unlike her brother. She is kind and gentle unless forced. Apparently Reywen ended up between Keal and Nyzina. I do hope i did not give her anything of my essence in the process? Well she was quite to choose and therefor avoiding much drama. Eli is very protective of her to a point where it seems almost to much. Yes i know here more or less raised her but she is a grown woman.

I went to find Eli this night. He was patrolling with the court out in Duskwood some rogue demon hunter warned us about a demon hiding out in Duskwood planning to destroy the world well nothing new there.

Walking back towards Darkshire Tower joins us and we stumble upon some old man walking around asking strange questions.

I must admit i do not like Brom and Mura much.. I know the Illidari have been through a lot and their way of talking and.. socializing are at a minimum but I dont take lightly to insults no matter how subtle.

The Ebon Vigil comes along after we have gathered at begger's haunt.
Eli goes to speak with their leader. With Keal talking to Nyz it is clear i am the outside and i cannot blaime them for i am not a demon hunter. Quite the contrary...

I got restless and started walking around. Araleth came to join us briefly but left again.

Nyz is worried about Reywen... They are a good couple cause Nyz clearly cares for her and protects her. I will admit the female and female together has always eluded me but what makes them happy is all that matters.

Eli left with the Vigil and Keal went to help Nyz with her glaives so i was again left alone. It is hard not being at his side. Not that we are to be together all the time but it has always been my place in such: I was always at Ziszey side always at Shanras. This is my place or have i been wrong?

I know he is not use to having me around in official affairs but if i am to become one of them.. and equal i need to be able to prove my worth.

Belteh found me at the camp. I still need to get use to him wanting to call me mum but he is sweet a little naive and unlucky but sweet.

After Beleth left I talked a bit with Elkos.. There is something so familiar about him but i just cant place it and it unnerves me.

Out of the blue a lot of the court comes out of the portal or well Araleth came before but Eli, Keal, Brom, Shan're and Nyz.

I like when he calls me Starlight.. i dont know why.. Maybe it is the public display of affection that seems to alien to him because of his normal harsh demeanor this showing there is more to him than what he lets them see... I dont maybe i am just being foolish.

Elkos was strangely curious about my former relationship and had a lot of questions towards my motives behind leaving him and such.

Beleth came back.. He is so hard to not find adorable when he is in his tiny dragon form... ALso why i took him back to the ship when he fell asleep in my arms. Yes i know Bel is a grown man but when he is in that little form who can put that aside. He slept beside me on the bed all night on a pillow. Eli didnt seem to happy about the idea of sharing his bed with his son...