Book VII - Page 5

Just when i think i know my path... something like this happens...

The night was exhilarating... He is finally starting to understand that i am not made of glass and not hold back with me but give in to what he feels and wants.

I am stilled bruised from the night with Ami but i am over the edge exhausted from last night...

I got the answers i needed but some of them was a chock to me to hear him say and it almost makes me rethink if this risk is worth it... But It is, i need to heal properly...

It was an incredible night but it was his words that made me have that dream... and well a girl can fantasies cant she? As long as i wake up and remember it was just a dream.. a dream not to pursue...

Book VII - Page 4

Why do I keep getting so depressed from time to time. I am an emotional whirlwind inside.
Things get clouded and I convince myself of the easy why out.

I finally took matters into my own hands instead of always wallowing in self pity. I need to talk to both of them and last night i got the answers I need from the first.

the cuts and bruises from last night only makes me feel more alive. It was clear that we had not seen each other in a long time... And how I love this feral side of him... But still he is so much more than just a beast.

I fear for my meeting with Dii and what he his answers will be? But i miss him...

This is so confusing to stand with your heart ripped between two, how can i feel so strongly for them both? It is not right but still i cannot deny it, I can't choose and I can't stay away.

Both for now I will just go back and cuddle up in his arms and forget everything... for now